the secret keeper/jennifer kiley OCTOBER 1ST

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This Show Made Me Fall In Love with Julie Andrews

I Have Loved Her Ever Since


Julie & Carol at Carnegie Hall

Make yourself comfortable in whatever way it does it for you
Let yourself evolve into the show & celebration of Julie Andrews Birthday

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Darling Lili 1970

Julie Andrews & Carol Burnett At Carnegie Hall – You’re So London

Julie Andrews & Carol Burnett At Carnegie Hall – History of Musical Comedies

Julie Andrews & Carol Burnett At Carnegie Hall – The Pratt Family Singers

Julie Andrews & Carol Burnett At Carnegie Hall – From Big D




Audrey Hepburn [Nominated for My Fair Lady] and Julie Andrews [Oscar for Mary Poppins]



Private Writings: Chapter #81 “Fighting the End”

private writings a novel of true fantasy by jennifer kiley [shawn's 2d blue name]

“Fighting the End”
Private Writings #81 
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Post Tuesday 30th September 2014

Not Suitable For Children.
Anyone Resembling Anyone Living or Dead
Is Purely Coincidental.

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Crypticistic Synopsis:

private writings to dr. annie haskell psychoanalyst

I am the storyteller using imagination fantasy feelings & thoughts

to discover self soul eternal serenity & bliss

but to most importantly tell the best tale ever after upon a time.

see you down the rabbit hole.

Private Writings: Chapter #81  “Fighting the End”

Tuesday 24th March 2009

Dear Maria,

It is our first session, Maria Lopez Falcón, it rolls off the tongue. So, you are my new therapist. I’m not in the best states. My mind is frazzled from having my soul sucked out through my eyes by way of my heart & stomach. Annie is gone. I can’t bear to think she has gone off to be in the line of crazy people with bombs & ammunition for their multiple kill apparatus. She doesn’t know where Noah is, her husband the CIA. I think that is supposed to be hush-hush. No one releases that information unless his cover has been compromised. I heard today they’ve killed over 50 journalists. Probably thought they were spies.

So I’m here reporting for duty & really depressed. The dark side of my bipolar is taking over. Losing Annie is destroying me. Losing someone I feel close to.

After i got out of session today, i realized you were trying to make me feel safe so i would feel less restricted from opening up. We have a lot of common interests. Films, TV, books, fun fiction, especially vampires for you For me fantasy with romance & supernatural ghosts i most enjoy. Not one out to do bad. The freely confused kind. Do i seem strange to you? It’s ok. Doesn’t make me feel inferior. Its cool to like who we do. It’s original.

Now that i am home and alone, the feelings have deteriorated into suicidal feelings. Tonight is the night i finally just do it, I’ve got the pills, the warm bath, champagne & a rather sharp knife. I didn’t forget the pot either. No to get naked and just do it. 

I wrote the final letters. One for Jamie, Scottie, Alison, Annie, Catherine & one for myself. To go to Maria Lopez Falcón. I love to say the name.It’s time to know when to make an exit. It freaks people out. Why? I’m the one who is dying. It’s time to see the other side.’if it is at all possible to send a message i will. But will i make you understand.

I’d like to stick around to know you. Maybe another time around. Next life.

The pills are swallowed. The bath is drawn. Music chosen & playing. Check letters are written. Smoke some weed. Time to climb into the bath & slit my wrists. I would just slip away with no pain. I will leave behind all the loses.

Good night. It was quite the ride.

Fondly, M…

The End

© Madison Taylor 2008

“I think writing really helps you heal yourself. I think if you write long enough, you will be a healthy person. That is, if you write what you need to write, as opposed to what will make money, or what will make fame.“ — Alice Walker

Maksim - Somewhere In Time - Composer John Barry

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“A Dream
The beginning always starts out
With a dream.
It is all a dream
In our own nightmares”
— Madison Taylor

Le Chateau de Rocher - Home to Madison & Scottie   Their Cats & daughter Alison. She has her own place on the estate

Le Chateau de Rocher – Home to Madison & Scottie
Their Cats & daughter Alison. She also has her own place on the estate

play is not just play meryl streep“Pretending is not just play.
Pretending is imagined possibility”
— Meryl Streep

private moments #81 “depression”

private moments in paintings & poetryprivate moments #81
Poem Written by Jennifer Kiley

Post 29th September 2014
Poem for Private Writings: Chapter #81 “Lost In Thought”
“Mindless Outburst” by jkm

“For that fine madness still he did retain,
Which rightly should possess a poet’s brain.”
~Michael Drayton~ (1563-1631)

mindless outburst (c) jkm 2014

mindless outburst (c) jkm 

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By Madison Taylor

31st March 2009

I have forgotten the feeling
It has been silent so long
For me time’s length
Is unmeasurable
It could be a moment
One hour
One minute
A second later
I just have not been feeling it

Have passed my doorway

And returned

Too many times
Sticks around


A slip will come
Darkness will fall
Real and false
The worse

Through the mind

Favorite is to add confusion
Blocking out the heart
The emotions of the blind
The senses of the mind

They leave you to debate

Is it now?
Do I do it now?

© jkm

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Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini - Composer Rachmaninoff – Pianist Maksim Mrvica

garden waterfall private gazebo overgrown 4pmip&p

“Doorway to a Place of Enchantment”

“Creating is having the courage
to allow the seer into the private
moments of our imaginative lives.”

— jkm the secret keeper
aka Jennifer Kiley McCormack

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(c) jennifer kiley 2014

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The Known and the Unknown – #11

a writer's word polished or rawThe Known and the Unknown – #11
Excerpts from the Essay “Fail Safe”
Written by Debbie Millman
Post Sunday 28th September 2014

The Essay titled “Fail Safe”
Taken From Anthology
Look Both Ways: Illustrated Essays
on the Intersection of Life and Design

Debbie Millman is an Artist
Strategist & Interviewer

“Fail Safe” The Essay-Explores Existential Skills-Living With Uncertainty-Embracing The Unfamiliar-Allowing For Not Knowing-Cultivating What John Keats Famously Termed “Negative Capability”

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The Known and the Unknown – #11

If you
imagine less,
less will be
what you



don’t stop
until you get
what you love.

as hard
as you can




waste time.


20 years
from now

two weeks
from now.


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“The Known and the Unknown” – Part #11 - Jennifer Kiley


“Do What You LOVE

“I Still Cry”

creative musings [dragon]

“I Still Cry”

Song by Ilse de Lange

Post by Jennifer Kiley

Post Saturday 27th September 2014


Too many have died or gone for reasons that sense has no clarification for. They were ripped away suddenly. “I Still Cry” sometimes when I think of the Ones I love who live in my heart. It is the symbol of One who has died through the incarnations. When reborn and found again, the time is short, intense and painful when the release happens again. Her death and her life being taken away, is a repetition I must continue to find strength within to survive. She is in the eyes of strangers. In their voices and the masks they all wear as a disguise. Pretending, in my mind, to be the One. The disappointment eventually strikes and the pain returns in the strongest and fullest force possible. This song is for all those who have lost Love felt so deeply, that their absence pulls you into their death to guide them through. The sadness and pain is ripped open wide and your heart is pulled out through the hole which once was filled by their presence. I DEDICATE THIS TO THE ONE WHO CONTINUES TO BE BY MY SIDE EVEN IF FROM THE OTHER SIDE AND TO THOSE WHO RESURRECT THE FEELINGS I LOST INSIDE OF HER. <3 jkm


“I Still Cry” – Ilse de Lange

“I Still Cry”
Sung by Ilse de Lange

I’m making flowers out of paper
While darkness takes the afternoon
I know that they won’t last forever
But real ones fade away to soon

blue eyed young woman tears falling slowly down cheek

Chorus :
I still cry sometimes when I remember you
I still cry sometimes when I hear your name
I said goodbye and I know you’re alright now
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry

It’s just that I recall September
It’s just that I still hear your song
It’s just I can’t seem to remember
Forever more those days are gone


Chorus :
I still cry sometimes when I remember you
I still cry sometimes when I hear your name
I said goodbye and I know you’re alright now
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry

crying faerie silver sparkles

I still cry sometimes when I remember you
I still cry sometimes when I hear your name
I said goodbye and i know you’re alright now
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry


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Take One: Top Ten Movie Witches

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Top Ten Movie Witches

Post Created by Jennifer Kiley

Post Friday 26th September 2014


Top Ten Movie Witches

Top Ten Movie Witches

Requirements to make this list. Any female witch whether labeled as such but a character who uses magic & sorcery is considered eligible.

10.  The Sanderson Sister “Hocus Pocus” [1993] Bette Midler [Winifred]. Kathy Najimy [Mary]. Sarah Jessica Parker [Sarah].
I Put A Spell On You and Now Your Mine. My favorite part of the film when they are singing this to the adults Halloween Celebration. Winifred [Bette Midler] puts a spell on them. Yes, to dance themselves to death. But it is a scary yet campy cultish. I love this film & watch whenever it appears on the TV, by accident usually, but just them same once it hooks me I am there for the rest of the supernatural drama of heroism on the side of both sexes of the young people kind. Two in HS & one child even younger.

9.   The White Witch “The Chronicles of Narnia” [2005] Tilda Swinton as the White Witch who brings winter to Narnia for 100 years. She is self-proclaimed Queen and turns those who are against her into stone statues. Love the books of Narnia. Hold special meaning. The White Queen is so cold and heartless. I never got a sense that her state of being was to be EVIL & ALL POWERFUL. She is like Christopher Lee in LOTRs. She wants Ultimate POWER. Nit there is always ASLAN.

8.    Mary Poppins  “Mary Poppins” [1964] Julie Andrews. The worlds best Nanny. Strong connection with nature, a positive aura and the ability to pop into park pavement pictures. Who doesn’t love Mary Poppins? I can only imagine it would be someone who has never heard of her or seen her on the screen or first in books.

7.   Nancy Downs  “The Craft” [1996][Starring ?] She’s a Gothic teen wants to bring in one more girl to join the coven she wants to form. She uses her supernatural abilities and her powers of levitation telekinesis  is nasty and evil. Some of the hallucinations she causes to others is horrible & terrifying. This is a frightening film and the closer to the end it becomes overwhelmingly EVIL & a fight to survive.

6.   Alexandra, Jane & Sukie  “The Witches of Eastwick” [1987] Cher, Susan Sarandon, Michelle Pfieffer. These three witches discover their magic powers and create a coven. After being seduced by the Devil, they use voodoo to get back at him. He’s played by Jack Nicholson. My favorite scene in this film is when the witches are eating unpitted cherries. Veronica Cartwright plays this rather unbalanced human being who is being hit by the forces of Evil. When the 3 women are munching down, Veronica’s stomach is not feeling so good. What to do with the pits? That is the whole problem.

5.   Eva Ernst aka The Grand High Witch  “Witches” [1990] Angelica Huston. Their worldwide coven kill children, the hatred comes supposedly the way children smell. First they turn them into small creatures to make it easier. The witches in this are pure Evil. They want to turn children into small creatures and then kill everyone of them. It has some touching moments with a boy and his grandmother. Who knows who these witches are.

4.   Bellatrix Lestrange  “Harry Potter” Series [2001 - 2011] Helena Bonham Carter. This crazy full blown witch. She is the most loyal member of Lord Voldemort’s Death Eaters. She escaped her imprisonment from Askaban. She cause horrible things to happen because of her sadistic and deadly nature. There is no excuses for Bellatrix. She is Uncontrollable Devotional Evil to Voldemort, the name one is not to say out loud. Huh!

3.   Hermione Granger  “Harry Potter” Series [2001 - 2011] Emma Watson. A Half-Blood Witch. She is powerful. She masters spells. Learns to fight. It was great to watch Emma Watson grow up as herself and as Hermione Granger. I Loved her interaction especially with Harry Potter [Daniel Radcliffe - We share the same birthdays]. I loved this whole series and of course routed for Griffendor and crew plus Hagrid. Hermione’s abilities save many a doomed situation.

2.   Maleficent  “Sleeping Beauty” [1959] The Mistress of All Evil. Powerful witch or Dark Fairy. The Darkest Evil ever. Her power is conjured from Hell. She intends to kill the Princess before her 16th birthday. She even turns her Evil into a Dragon to challenge the Prince when he comes to save his Princess. She scares me more than the real people playing out there on the screen.

1.   The Wicked Witch of the East  “The Wizard of Oz” [1939] Margaret Hamilton. The Green Skinned Menace with a shoe fetish, love for dramatic, an incapable of taking baths without water. She has a cackling voice. She enslaves flying monkeys. OMG she scared me to death. Whenever she cackled into the Crystal Ball, saying, “Auntie Em, Auntie Em” mocking Dorothy who took the prize in the end.

Honorable Mentions: (1) “Practical Magic” with Sandra Bullock, Nicole Kidman, Diane Wiest, Stockard Channing. (2) “Bell, Book and Candle” Kim Novak… (3)“Bewitched”  Nicole Kidman. [Elizabeth Montgomery - on TV]. I just like the witches in these three movies and Elizabeth Montgomery made being a witch more legitimate, though comical. At least, she never got threatened with burning at the stake. Within the present time she was living in. Though she did time trip, I believe.

I was fortunate to see all of the films mentioned above and I would recommend them all, even “The Craft.” It was a good film, but scary how evil takes away the power and rights of others. That is not Witchcraft as it really is in Reality. But we all have a right to our fantasies and perceptions as long as our prejudices do not interfere with the entertainment, and not the real aspects of the Power of Witchcraft & Magic.

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Why People Need Poetry

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Why People Need Poetry

TED Talk: Stephen Burt

Post Created by Jennifer Kiley

Post Thursday 25th September 2014


Why People Need Poetry - TED Talk: Stephen Burt

Published on Jun 4, 2014

“We’re all going to die — and poems can help us live with that.” In a charming and funny talk, literary critic Stephen Burt takes us on a lyrical journey with some of his favorite poets, all the way down to a line break and back up to the human urge to imagine.

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