colours streaming
by jennifer kiley
written on july 9th 2012
colours of the world
colours streaming
colours streaming in a dream state,
free flowing through the stars,
connecting strings of reds and blues.
all lights are dancing,
holding rays of gold and green.
touching magic, colour schemes.
dancing in the heart.
switches to impossible.
to attachment, then to fear.
when sending power leaves.
feeling separate reappears,
and attachment disentangles.
collapsing love entirely
defeating love’s intensity.
difference alters change.
but one who sees too much
of what is there gets buried
in too deeply for most to see.
blinded by the light.
thru the darkness, cannot see
and lost is calling found.
rescue is victorious.
control is now revealed.
inner power is awakened.
gracefully back away
before the fool appears
bringing in the view.
lost in thoughts
having discovered.
release will set you free.
fear frightens everything,
no exceptions to the fright.
rejections’ vulnerability.
no reasons to remain alive.
never right again.
leave before the hurt sinks in.
enter streams of madness
nothing as it seems.
all is contrary to its’ self.
not existing
having never been
elusive life can be.
imaginary figures.
entering into dreams
inevitably all will wake.
wanting what is real.
doubt, no realness here.
never has been, ever will.
dying, death.
surrounding now.
lost inside a maze.
wanting. leaving.
nearing exit.
all that once was made.
all is going.
invisible, vanishing.
the darkness settling in.
faces going.
bringing sadness.
the mirror of invisibility.
no more seeing favorite things.
no sexy bodies, doing sexy things.
those sights will be gone.
visions all will vanish,
disappearing and impending,
the eyes will cease to see.
light vanishing at the end of the darkness
your writing is magical!
now you are blowing me away. what a wonderful thing to say to me. thank you. i appreciate your words and their sentiment. jen
I understand that state. It is not real, just the fear, the vulnerability. Come back. I will also post you my song on colours: http://soundcloud.com/niamh-clune/07-colours
your song brought tears to my eyes in a good way. the music touched me inside with a geniune feeling of openness. your voice was very soothing. i am back. i did do some traveling into the past to look at some poems i wrote a few years ago. i have grown but the fears are still haunting me. i do let people inside my world. no matter the pain i have felt from closeness i cannot resist the need for love, giving and receiving. my grandmother showed me what love is and she filled my world with it. i really do believe it was her love that protected me and enabled me to survive.
thank you for yesterday and a happy birthday to the new three year old. i wish you all a beautiful celebration. love, jen xoxox
Please don’t cease to see. One day those eyes will see beauty again. Beauty and hope and safety and relief. *caring*
Love from your friend Rach.
i love to look at beauty. my sight is extremely important to me. it’s my moods that take control & either exhaust my body with all this explosive energy or make me feel down. neither state is ideal but i’d rather be hypomanic than depressed. thank you for caring. i am here for you, also. how have you been doing? is life giving you a break or are things still kind of rough? tell me anything you want to share. i am a good listener. and you are very kind. love jen xoxox