green world after global

creation of time and space
by jennifer kiley
9.29.12

struggling
with regaining
something that
has been alive
inside
but taken
by others
who are
and were
soul stealers
i’ve known
too many

was broken
into
submission
a dangerous position
submit to
acceptance
not a choice
forced
into it
difficult
to break free
from
prison
no freedom
no identity
just obedience

In college
drugs
booze
an illusion
was created
control
had been
banished
for a time
lived
in both worlds
identity
student
filled the needs

eventually
forced back
into slavery
controlling bosses
every fiber
fought them
finally one
succeeded
trapped by
emotional vampire

wrote
free time
worked
breathed
animals
during off time
groups
and therapy
but trapped
an emotionally
destructive
diatribe
gradually
undermined beliefs
in self
abilities
every good
about self
stolen
the soul
in pieces
until
it had
vanished

fought like hell
it was futile
had to
back away
that day
the soul
the self
the identity
gone
ever since
worked
to find
the scattered
parts
to
regain

exhausted
the struggle
psychological
well-being
withdrew
into seclusion
stepping out
from behind
the curtain
now
forward
retreat
check
chess board
decide
pieces safest
then those
willing to
challenge
say checkmate

the real self
is emerging
becoming butterfly
cocoon slipping
away
emerging
from
the chrysalis
ready to fly
to touch
flowers
delicately
spread
essence
create beauty
in an
uncertain world
changing into
unidentifiable entity

must create
spatial existence
establish dreams
in a world
that will accept
growth
move away
from the toxins
unhealthy
environments
people
who drag down
into stagnant
repetitive
non-existence
shed remains
of previous world
need no longer
enter into
a new
creation
of time
and space

© Jennifer Kiley 2012

Tom Waits-All the World is Green