“I Want To Hold You”
Private Writings #71
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Post Tuesday 22nd July 2014
WARNING: ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT
Not Suitable For Children.
ALL CHARACTERS ARE FICTITIOUS.
Anyone Resembling Anyone Living or Dead
Is Purely Coincidental.
private writings to dr. annie haskell psychoanalyst
I am the storyteller using imagination fantasy feelings & thoughts
to discover self soul eternal serenity & bliss
but to most importantly tell the best tale ever after upon a time.
see you down the rabbit hole.
Private Writings: Chapter #71 — “I Want To Hold You”
Tuesday 13th January 2009
I have been searching inside my sometimes clueless mind for clues. Just trying to understand what the Hell is happening. I need to pull myself together & find more strength to help Alison to heal. She is still in a coma. Her vitals have leveled into a lesser degree of danger. I am in the Arboretum at Cedar Sinai. I needed air & time to process. Also, I wanted to write to you. I am going to write down some of the thoughts I’ve been having. And of course I will start with Sylvia Kendall. I FUCKING HATE HER.
What if Sylvia tampered with the car or someone else did. Maybe others wanted revenge on her. I’m trying not to get ahead of myself, but the police think something about the accident makes them think it may never have been an accident but instead the crash was intentional. Someone either tampered with the Porsche or the driver crashed it on her own. The car is undergoing a thorough examination. Every detail is being investigated.
No one knew Alison was going to be in that car with Sylvia. It was a last minute switch. The actress that was meant to play the part, had become ill and unable to work on our film, “Luck Inside the Curse.” She pulled out early enough so a recast would not be costly. Scottie thought of Alison as a perfect replacement. She had been asking Scottie for a while now if she could try out for a part in one of our films. Alison had earned the right. College training on the stage and making short films with a group of her classmates. They all looked great. Alison often played the lead roles. She continued her Method classes once she came home. I’ve watched her doing scenes. She is amazing. A true gift she had according to her teachers.
And now Sylvia has tried to take her away from me. Was she trying to kill herself or our daughter out of revenge. We filed charges against her for rape and her degrading & physically harmful brutality. Even with doing that, we couldn’t break her contract as the lead in “Luck Inside the Curse.”
Scottie felt violated having to work with her. She hates, hated working with Sylvia. It seems it should be said in the past tense due to the direness of the present situation. If Sylvia did this intentionally, which I strongly feel is what happened, she will go to prison if she survives, even if Alison does survive. I hold these positive thoughts & feelings strongly in my mind & heart for Alison’s recovery. But either way it is attempted murder and a possible suicide attempt.
I don’t like to think about any of that. Let the authorities deal with Her.
I will write more again soon. Need a break. Not getting much sleep. Need to smoke more Medical Weed than I do, but I am glued to the ICU & don’t want to leave. Scottie is going to have one of the Chefs cook up some Edibles for me to help me hold on.
Until I write again.
Goodnight. Ciao Ciao!!!
© Madison Taylor 2008
“I think writing really helps you heal yourself. I think if you write long enough, you will be a healthy person. That is, if you write what you need to write, as opposed to what will make money, or what will make fame.“ — Alice Walker
Maksim - Somewhere In Time - Composer John Barry[Dedicated to Annie]
The beginning always starts out
With a dream.
It is all a dream
In our own nightmares”
— Madison Taylor
Le Chateau de Rocher – Home to Madison & Scottie
Their Cats & daughter Alison. She also has her own place on the estate
“Pretending is not just play.
Pretending is imagined possibility”
— Meryl Streep