“Do You Know a Secret?”
Private Writings #76
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Post Tuesday 26th August 2014
WARNING: ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT
Not Suitable For Children.
ALL CHARACTERS ARE FICTITIOUS.
Anyone Resembling Anyone Living or Dead
Is Purely Coincidental.
private writings to dr. annie haskell psychoanalyst
I am the storyteller using imagination fantasy feelings & thoughts
to discover self soul eternal serenity & bliss
but to most importantly tell the best tale ever after upon a time.
see you down the rabbit hole.
Private Writings: Chapter #76 “Do You Know A Secret?”
Tuesday 17th February 2009
I really need to to get out of Redcliff. My daughter Alison Porter needs me know. We have no idea if Alison does them survive the crash and not that was a horrible one. I don’t know whether Silvia was mad, there’s something wrong with the car, but there should never have been any crash. The stunt was simple, no complications should have caused this accident. That’s what makes me think someone tampered with the car.
Scottie contacted Sylvia’s mom, and Catherine Leighton is devastated. Her daughter means more than your own life to her. When I first met Catherine, Sylvia was all she could talk about. She wanted her to be famous as an actress and as a good person. She realized Sylvia had something significantly wrong with her mentally. Sylvia was sent to many doctors, many clinics, and no one could help her. Catherine had about given up on Sylvia, and then she heard what Sylvia had done to me, that she had sexually abused me in a brutal way, which drove me over the edge, and caused my mental breakdown.
Catherine got to know me while I was in Redcliff. She wrote to me regularly. I received at least three letters a week from her. We became close through those letters. Then the accident happened. Catherine didn’t know what to do next. She asked for my forgiveness. Both our daughters were in the accident. And neither one might survive. I could feel Catherine in her words. She was crushed that both our daughters might die threw her daughter’s actions. The mere thought that Sylvia was to blame for the accident, that it was actually intentional disturbed Catherine beyond belief. That was the rumor, that Sylvia was suicidal when she went out with the car. Was it her intentions to take my daughter down with her?
I felt for Catherine but I was more concerned with what was happening with Alison, Scottie and my daughter. Alison was in a coma. Her brain was bleeding out. The surgeons were working on her. They at least had not given up hope. As far as Sylvia, it didn’t look good at all. Even though Scottie was angry with Sylvia she and Catherine stayed together at the hospital. The hospital had set up three extra beds in Alison’s private room.
Jamie stayed with them all. I wanted that, so someone could be strong for them all and to temporarily take my place, because I was not allowed out of Redcliff yet. Annie was working with Dr. Virginia McKinnon to find a way of releasing me early. They needed to get a promise from me, that I would return to Redcliff once everything was well with Alison. I knew I would need to return also, to help Angie & a few other ghosts who expected my guidance. For some reason, they could communicate with me, and the same in reverse for me. I could see & hear them as well.
Scottie spent most of her time with Alison so she had Jamie keep in touch with me letting me know all of what was going on. Your angel voice spoke the words that were so soothing to me. My feelings for Jamie and Scottie and Alison held me together just bearly. I could not wait. It was driving me nuts knowing my baby daughter, I know she is full grown, I could not bear to lose her. She brings a tremendous amount of love and meaning into my life. It may sound corny, but she is one of the reasons I wake up every morning and want to stay alive.
If Alison dies, I will want to die with her. It’s as simple as that. She is important in my life and to my life. What reason would I want to live without my daughter, if she is not alive. So she just has to live. The surgeons have to save her. They must save her.
Annie should know soon when I can get out of here and if I can get out of here. I’ve bearly spoken to Scottie since the accident. She must be angry with me for not being there for her. I will run into her arms and hold her until we can both are able to cry for Alison. Crying, the both of us, together. Tears may relieve some of the pressure and the pain.
Dr. McKinnon just came to see me. She had good news. I was getting out of Redcliff this afternoon. I signed the release with the stipulation I would return when all was back in order. That is if anything returns back into any semblance of order. Were there any promises of that. I wanted to feel hopeful.
The car had been ordered to pick me up in a few hours. In order to leave, I would need a little time to gather my things together. I was feeling anxious already and some fear of seeing how Alison looked. I was afraid to see how her body had been crushed in the accident. All I can do now is wait until I see her in a few hours.
I will write to you as soon as I know something Annie. I will be patient if you will be. I will try texting you when I arrive at the hospital and send you any information I find out immediately.
PS. I love you Annie. Thank you for being there. That means more to me than you know.
© Madison Taylor 2008
“I think writing really helps you heal yourself. I think if you write long enough, you will be a healthy person. That is, if you write what you need to write, as opposed to what will make money, or what will make fame.“ — Alice Walker
Maksim - Somewhere In Time - Composer John Barry[Dedicated to Alison & Sylvia. May they both make it through.]
The beginning always starts out
With a dream.
It is all a dream
In our own nightmares”
— Madison Taylor
Le Chateau de Rocher – Home to Madison & Scottie
Their Cats & daughter Alison. She also has her own place on the estate
“Pretending is not just play.
Pretending is imagined possibility”
— Meryl Streep