Do Not Leave Me In This Dark Alone

cinematic catharsis a touching awakening

Do Not Leave Me In This Dark Alone
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Created 21st March 2014
Post Friday 11th April 2014
[A Touching Awakening]

Lovers Last Scene – Wuthering Heights [1939]

Cathy’s heart is broken and filled with sorrow. She has no will to live. To feel such a powerful love that only death will end her longings and quiet her broken heart. She did it to herself by breaking Heathcliff’s heart first, then abandoning him for propriety, to live in her virtuous life of dullness. This leads her to marry Linton [David Niven]and the abandonment of her soul when she leaves Heathcliff behind. The life she chooses instead is one that is hollow. Her dreams were broken with her heart.

At the end for Cathy, Heathcliff arrives at her death bed to say goodbye. They share a loving moment before she dies in Heathcliff’s arms, as he holds her up at the window. Linton, the doctor and her nursemaid arrive as Heathcliff carries Cathy’s lifeless body back to her bed. He kneels to say goodbye. He stands as he then curses her. The words just below, Heathcliff proclaims over Cathy’s dead body. He wants Cathy to haunt him. Asks her, how he can live without his heart and his soul. That is what Cathy is to him and Heathcliff was to her.

Heathcliff: “Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest so long as I live on! I killed you. Haunt me, then! Haunt your murderer! I know that ghosts have wandered on the Earth. Be with me always. Take any form, drive me mad, only do not leave me in this dark alone where I cannot find you. I cannot live without my life! I cannot die without my soul.”

The following video is Cathy’s Theme from the film Wuthering Heights. The music and the still photos from the film will give you a small sense of how moving and powerful are the emotions that fill the story of Heathcliff and Cathy Earnshaw. Their love was meant to be and Cathy does not forget that but is mesmerized by the image of her life lived with Linton. So Cathy abandons her true love and true life for one filled with dilettantes and vaporous people. She breaks her own heart and causes her life to weaken from lack of what fills her life with love and reason for life, Heathcliff.

Wuthering Heights – Cathy’s Theme – Alfred Newman [1939]

Private Writings: Chapter #54 – I Feel Fine

private writings to a psychoanalyst (c) Jk 2013
Private Writings: Chapter #54 – I Feel Fine
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Painting by NAME OF ARTIST
Introduction & Chapter #1
Published on March 19th 2013
Published Early Tuesday AM
Posted On Tuesday 25th March 2014

Not Suitable For Children.
All Characters Are Fictitious.
Anyone Resembling Anyone Living or Dead
Is Purely Coincidental.

Crypticistic Synopsis:

private writings to dr. annie haskell

I am the storyteller
using imagination fantasy feelings & thoughts
to discover self soul eternal serenity
but to most importantly
tell the best tale ever after upon a time

see you down the rabbit hole.
namaste! madison taylor

Private Writings: Chapter #54 — I Feel Fine

Tuesday 16th September 2008

Dear Annie,

They won’t let me see you while I’m in this place. The doors may not be locked but no one is going to allow me to leave. I never wanted to be inside a place where they watch every minute detail of what I do. Why didn’t she let me die? Why did Jamie call for help. She should have let me die. How did she know I was in trouble? I remember sending you a letter for her. Oh, right, I sent her the poem I wrote about love. I sent a preface to the poem I wrote for her. What an idiot. I was talking about suicide. Never said I was going to do it. Even if I did take all my stash of Klonopin mixed with some brandy. I was just starting to fall asleep for good. Heading into a peaceful sleep. No more thoughts. No more feelings. No more pain. No more people pretending to love me and then fucking me. Abandoning me. I am sick of it. Let them all go fuck themselves.

I want you to see the note and poem I sent to Jamie. Would it make you get so alarmed you call in the cops and medics. Between Jamie pulling me to my feet and walking me around before the emergency crew arrived. Jamie even walked me into a ice cold shower. That freaked my body out. I think I went into a seizure or something that felt like I was way out of control. I was awake bearly, but I wasn’t coherent. Nothing was making any sense at that moment. My eyes couldn’t focus at all.

Enter the women in their scrubs with their equipment. They were plugging me in to so many tubes. We were off to the hospital in no time. Pumping stomachs. Needles into tubes going into my body. They have a shrink talk to me. I was too out of it to make sense out of what she said. She did say she was going to admit me into the psyche ward for observation. That freaked me out. I demanded they contact my partner Scottie Andrews. She had power of attorney. I wasn’t going to be going upstairs.

Scottie arrived. Jamie had tracked her down and explained what had happened. She was upset with me but more concerned than angry. Scottie talked. I tried to listen. What I remember of our conversation is, our lawyer Michael was working on finding me a place at the Redcliff Psychiatric Institute. Being here is like being at a Country Club. Here I am, in this fall back to “David and Lisa” and “Lilith.” A place of splendor with Dr. Virginia MacKinnon, a great psychiatrist, for me to talk to.  She isn’t you. I’d rather be talking to you. But I am giving her a chance. I just am so confused by all that is happening. Why did I take all those pills? Why can’t I get away from people who want to hurt me? Why does it seem that I trust all the wrong kind of people who want to abuse me?

I want you to see what I wrote to Jamie that night. It might give you a sense of where I am at this moment. Maybe it’s telling, maybe not. I know I am going to write you as often as they allow me to. I wish I could call you or text you but they won’t let me have my cell phone or any of my techno gadgets. No laptops. No Tablets. No Cell Phones. No communication with the outside. With one exception, I am allowed to write to you. And I know you can’t write to me. They don’t want any outside influences.

Here is the note and poem I wrote to Jamie. I love her. I love Scottie. I love Alison. Please help them understand what I’ve done. I haven’t stopped feeling like killing myself. I still want to die. The depression has cut me off from feeling alive. I try to write poems. They won’t let me have my medical marijuana. That is killing me. It was the only thing that kept me balanced when I was balanced. My bipolar is out of control.

Lets forget about that. They won’t change their minds. MJ not allowed in here. No exceptions. This is going to make me feel more like I am falling apart than ever. I am sorry I let you down Annie. Trying to kill myself. It was stupid. The pain had a hold on me. It was crushing me. I had to let go. My estate was all settled and in good order. Everyone I wanted to be sure was taken care of was well planned out in my Will. Michael is a great lawyer.

I am putting it off. Here is what I wrote to Jamie. Keep in mind I was thinking of you in the note but I wanted Jamie to be the one to receive the note. To help her understand why I was doing what I did:

“I am insecure & uncertain about what is ok in terms of times & frequency of what is acceptable. I feel I could make a mistake & not even know it. It is causing the development of a darkness of confusion.”

“I love Jamie.  I spent the day almost intentionally focusing my attention on anything but thinking & feeling Jamie’s presence. I am afraid of the level of intensity between Jamie & I. With almost certainty, I feel Jamie & I are experiencing equal levels of intense emotions toward the other.”

“I want to hold her. I want to know what it feels like to wrap my arms around her. And to feel her body melting into mine. She would feel soft to hold. I want to lie down beside Jamie. To pull our bodies as close together as possible. And we would fall asleep with our lips near the others. Close enough to feel her warm breath caressing my face with the delicacy of her breathing.”

“I love her. I want to feel her spirit enter inside of me with warm loving energy. If I told her these feelings, I am not certain what her reaction would be. What I would like is for Jamie to tell me she feels the exact same way about me as I feel about her. We love each other deeply, as it is possible to love someone else who moves us into the highest spiritual level possible. I Love Her Now & Always & Forever. She is my soul spirit connection. I just want to dream about her.”

A poem of Haiku for J.S.

Love you bring to me
Before the sun can shine I
Dream of you with me

Before me you stand
My eyes look deep inside you
Two souls joined as one

You live in my mind
Your love sleeps inside my heart
Our lips want to speak

Love me forever
I am your soul protector
Loving you always

(c) mandy two-zero-zero-eight

I need Jamie. Her presence in my life fills up my fantasy world with warm and pleasurable sensations. When I think of her I can make up any feeling I want to experience. She is real inside for me. It may not be a sane reality but how close is sanity to madness and fantasies to reality. If you want them to happen you find a way to manifest your dreams. Does it hurt to think of someone in a dream? Make them be for you what you need. Does that make me insane for wanting a dream that once was to now be real again.

It pains me to want to love and not be able to get my body to be able to express those feelings in a real situation. When you are so careful, a nightmare enters your world and destroys it by crushing my dreams by overwhelming with the reality of my childhood by doing now what was a constant then. When she raped me, she stole away the last of my innocence. I guarded it and thought I was safe with all the protection I had surrounding me. But she still broke through and took everything that was left.

I just want to feel love. The kind of love I felt with my grandmother. I am tired. I will write more about the only person who ever loved me without wanting something in return. The energy of love I felt with my grandmother was magical and mystical. It filled me up and protected me from the abusers destroying me. She placed a shield that surrounded me. It kept their handling of my flesh from penetrating into my soul and darkening my spirit from the light. The light stayed alive inside me because grandmother has always protected me. I believe she is one of my guardian angels and I think and feel Tosh is another of those who protect me.

That’s all I can write for now. Until next week.

“Time for time and traveling with circuses must end. It is time to soar through the time barrier into all moments in the Universe.”

So, until I see you, I end with my favorite quote from the film “Brief Sacrifice.”

“Time can be folded and joined with all elements in all places as the one ultimate moment when time is all at once. In this place everything happens on a continual loop following into a continuum of time forever into infinity. In the “Silver Box,” there is contained the ability to draw time into itself and create the perfect infinite moment.”

I end this letter in “the moment between seconds.”

Love Fondly,



© madison taylor 2008

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The Embrace – Artist Klimpt

Somewhere In Time – Composer John Barry

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“A Dream
The beginning always starts out
With a dream.
It is all a dream
In our own nightmares”
— Madison Taylor

Le Chateau de Rocher

Le Chateau de Rocher is Madison & Scottie’s Home

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Top Ten Forbidden Romances In Films

I am an author with Expats Post. Included in what I write are Film Reviews. To have some fun, I decided to try Predicting the Oscar Picks of Eight [8] of my Top Categories. If you would like to see my Predictions, click on the following link:
Best Oscar Prediction Picks for 2014 It will take you to Expats Post and My Predictions. On Monday, 3rd March 2014, I will add to the post those who actually did take home an Oscar in the Top Eight [8]. To have a look at how precise or imprecise my foretelling is, check back on Expats Post at the same Link as above.

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Top Ten Forbidden Romances In Films
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Created on 18th February 2014
Posted on Friday 28th February 2014



Top Ten Forbidden Romances

10. Jay & Daisy “The Great Gatsby” {2013} [HAVE SEEN once but only the beginning] !!!!! out of 5 Starring Leonardo DiCaprio & Carey Mulligan. Adapted for the screen & Directed by Baz Lehrman superbly from the F.Scott Fitzgerald Novel “The Great Gatsby” written in the 20s of the 20th Century. It shows the self-made man. The modern Heathcliff returning with wealth to regain the hand of the woman that he loves. The film is narrated by his new neighbor Nick, cousin to the woman Jay Gatsby is in love with, the lovely Daisy. The film does not have the typical film ending for Americans but it comes straight out of the book. Recommend this version of “The Great Gatsby” for what is below the surface of its supreme flair & flaunting of excessive frivolity but there still is Robert Redford & Mia Farrow’s version, which come close.

9. Harold & Maude “Harold & Maude” {1971} [HAVE SEEN many times] !!!!! out of 5 Starring Ruth Gordon & Bud Cort. Case of a quirky young man who loves to attend funerals & gives his mother the appearance of being dead & once a first time viewer I wasn’t at all sure. Harold meets Maude at a funeral and they start an adventure of following the most unusual story of youth and age falling in love. Beautiful story. Very much worth watching.

8. Dave & Jade “Endless Love” {2013} [NOT SEEN] [??? on ! HNI] Have no clue. After reading up, it is a story of wealthy girl’s parents not liking their daughter to involve herself with someone not within her required dating class. Just released 2014 on Valentine’s Day. Looks like something for Young People but I think it has the potential of being something all ages starting at the mature teenager, would want to check out. Joely Richardson plays her mom and Bruce Greenwood plays her father. They come across in the Trailer as being overly restrictive or protective for good reasons. Only way to find out how this story develops is to see this possibly intersting film.

7. Flipper & Angie “Jungle Fever” {1991} [?NOT SURE -Spike Lee Film][??? on ! HNC] Starring Wesley Snipes & Anna Sciorra. On the grounds that is Spike Lee and he has made remarkable films. This might be a film I will be checking out. You might want to think about doing the same. Does the film “Do the Right Thing” ring a bell. Brilliant. My favorite Spike Lee film.

6. Jack & Karen “Out of Sight” {1998}[HAVE SEEN] !!!! out of 5 Starry George Cooney & Jennifer Lopez & a long list of amazing actors. I, especially found Steve Zahn extremely funny. This to me was more a comedy then a U.S. Marshall tracking a particular thief and discovery zanny crooks all about the place. My recollection of this film is laughing. Jennifer L. is the Law and G. Clooney is the Criminal element. Expect to enjoy and laugh when you watch this film. I do remember I did.

5. Baby & Johnny “Dirty Dancing” {1987} [HAVE SEEN-so many times & will see again.] !!!!! our of 5 [Miss Patrick] Starring Patrick Swayze & Jennifer Grey. The coolest film ever. Music takes you to every time zone. If you can go to the 50s and zone out. What a romantic and sensual film. Love the interaction with family, with the class structure of who are guests and who are employees [NOT TO MIX so UnFair]. Baby finds her way to the best places. Learns Dancing the most intimate way possible. Most entertaining film for any age. [Might want to distract the young kids if using bodies to really dance disturbs you. NOT I. It is so entertaining. The undercurrents of attraction are sizzling. The care for Baby's new friends is touching. Her father is not so pleased. Not sure if it is b/c of age or the uncertainty, in the father's mind, just how upright is this older young man being with his daughter. A father's question, "What does he want from my daughter?" Watch the film to see the answer and so much more than you can imagine.

4. Jack & Innis "Brokeback Mountain" {2005} [HAVE SEEN multiple times] !!!!! of 5 Starring Jake Gyllenhaal & Heath Ledger. I will first say, I miss Heath. Began watching him in TV show ROAR!!!. A kid whose character was way back in time. To this film and beyond. Every film. Every opportunity to see him act. “Brokeback Mountain” is brilliant. One cannot see more powerful performances then these two extremely great actors gave of themselves to themselves as Jack & Innis. Watching two men fall in love. Watching two women fall in love. Watching two people fall in love, man and woman. All of Love is Beautiful. To share the joy with another is what makes Love Special. Love is the most powerful emotions in the Universe and Beyond. If we each find our Other World Experience to be what we expect and want it to be, that is Love. Who wouldn’t wish for Love. The Soul’s gift to the natural elements of the Universe. A High Like No Other. Pure Love. Desiring the contact & union of feelings with another. We are talking the ethereal contact which on a HIGH of Higher Proportions than anything else in & out of existence. If you want the experience of seeing Love learned & expressed by two for the other, having it be a mutual feeling between them. Love when it is agreed upon & accepted freely by another, it takes on even a greater HIGH than any other energy force in the Universe. It will carry your spirit to Heights one can only imagine. Love this movie. Love the controversy. It meant Love mattered and those who understand Love fought for this story to be told. And it found acceptance from the enlightened ones who understand Love belongs to everyone. To be given in a respectful way. And on one’s own terms, it will be understood. I’d say, I Highly recommend the film “Brokeback Mountain. Ang Lee did a brilliant job as the Director.

3. Elizabeth & Mr. Darcy “Pride and Prejudice” {2005} [MAY HAVE - seen #s of versions] Keira Knightly & Matthew Macfayden[MI-5][?! HNC] Sparks fly when spirited Elizabeth Bennett meets single, rich, and proud Mr. Darcy. But Mr. Darcy reluctantly finds himself falling in love with a woman beneath his class. Can each overcome their own pride and prejudice?[descrition taken from]

2. Will & Viola “Shakespeare in Love” {1998} [HAVE SEEN many time] !!!!! of 5 Starry Gwenyth Paltrow[Best Actress Oscar 4SIL] & Joseph Fiennes. William Shakespeare. A film revolving around his younger life and creating his masterpiece play “Romeo & Juliet.” It is romantic. Judi Dench makes an occasionally appearance as Elizabeth I, Queen of England. [For her short time on screen she won a Best Supporting Actress Oscar] Gwenyth’s character manages to get herself cast a male actor playing the role of Romeo and William winning her love away from Colin Firth who plays the Royalty the Queen has set to marry Gwyneth’s character by the end of the film. It is a play of intrigue and error. Fun to see the Bard, Our Man Shakespeare, having a runabout with all sorts of problems to get his play produced. To find a theatre to show it in. The critics and moralists are against him & try to foil all his plans through an Edict. Highly Recommend. A Great Romp. And Judi Dench. :-)

1. Noah & Allie “The Notebook” {2004}[HAVE SEEN awhile back] !!!!! of 5 Starring Ryan Gosling & Rachel Adams in Past – James Garner & Gena Rowlands in Present. It is the story of love from the beginning-the middle-and The End. They were separated from the beginning by social class restrictions. In the end by the same thing, Identity, but in this a lessening of knowing who one is. An Emotional Roller Coaster Ride. Lots of Rainy moments.

Private Writings: Chapter #48 — Where You Once Belonged

private writings to a psychoanalyst (c) Jk 2013

Private Writings: Chapter #48 – Where You Once Belonged

Written by Jennifer Kiley
Introduction & Chapter #1
Published on March 19th 2013
Published Early Tuesday AM
Posted On Tuesday 11th February 2014




Crypticistic Synopsis:

private writings to dr. annie haskell,
psychoanalyst extraordinaire,
storytelling using letters, dreams, thoughts, poems, images,
music, art, scripts, psychotherapy, psychoanalysis,
inspirations, reflective comments, inner/outer workings
mind, soul, body, emotions, bipolar, mentally creative, interesting,
brain misfiring; abuse, crashes, near drownings,
hallucinations, heightened sexuality, time warps,
finding answers, unsolved mysteries, infatuations,
imagination, fantasy, discover self, soul, eternal serenity, bliss

see you down the rabbit hole.
namaste! madison taylor

Private Writings: Chapter #48 — Where You Once Belonged

Tuesday 5th August 2008

Dear Annie,

It’s your birthday in 5 days. Happy Birthday! I couldn’t be happier. Thank you for letting Scottie and I throw your party. Lots of actors, beautiful and handsome, straight and gay, lots of lesbians. That’s for my benefit. Younger people of the teenage persuasion. Rainer will have a blast. Scottie’s in charge. The architect of all the great parties in Hollywood. Oscar’s are Grand, but Scottie’s has the touch. Her personal sense of intimacy.

Since I brought Scottie into the conversation, I feel uncomfortable talking about her. Our relationship is too intimate and complicated as hell. Our eyes met in that first moment after I opened the door, a friend with a lady accompanying her, stood before me, waiting to get in to Gatsby’s party. My miniature Golden Corgi mix, she died suddenly. We were having a good old fashion Irish Wake to send her off. My friend introduced her, “Mad, I’d like you to meet Scottie Andrews, we now live together since she transferred to Yale from Stanford. My roommate left school suddenly and I had a spare bed in need of a warm female body.”

I kept my eyes on Scottie. It seemed I subconsciously followed her all night long. We spoke very briefly in the kitchen. Between us, the shyness was an epidemic. It felt good to be close to her even if we didn’t say many words. The silence between us was like a bubble that held us in, everyone else out. Without my knowledge, Scottie disappeared. She left early. No goodbye. That was only the first meeting. Our energy drew us in together like magnets.

Scottie appeared wherever I seemed to be. She was in my acting class, creative writing, screenwriting, film editing, even my painting class. Either she was being given inside information about me or it was serendipity. Scottie reassured me later it was coincidental. That she was at Yale to study film and all its components. She asked me why I was taking her classes. Arrogant. I reassured her they were my classes first and I was studying screenwriting and the art of acting, painting, writing, and film making. I wanted to make films.

Well, we realized we were studying toward the same goal, so we teamed up together. From that point on we became friends. The friend she lived with thought it was great we were all friends. Scottie told me, our friend Jillian, was encouraging her to spend time with me. I was a radio junkie, so I worked with some other gay men and lesbians to produce a LGBT radio show on Saturday Night. It was early enough so we could all go out and play after the show. Scottie got in on helping to produce. It was our way of learning how to do sound and performance.

I started having feelings of attraction for Scottie come to the surface. We had magical times together. But physically, I kept my distance. Hurting Jillian was not something I wanted to do. My feelings were growing. I could feel something coming from Scottie. It was the look in her eyes when I caught her eyes fixed on me. It was a long moment before we both looked away. At least, I thought she looked away. It was getting harder to be with her and feel the way I did.

One day I could not stand keeping my feelings a secret from her. At least, I could write her a poem. No harm in giving her a poem I wrote where I expressed in cryptic language what I felt for her. If I can find the poem I will send it to you in a separate envelop. The first poem I wrote, I cried while the words poured down onto the paper. Each word piercing my heart with wounds filled with pain and intense longing. I wanted to hold her. To feel her arms around me. To know what sensation would move heatedly through my body.

To be attracted so intensely to someone with whom you feel you are falling in love, is the most romantic of sensations. The wanting to be near them. To hold their bodies close to yours as you melt into each others arms. One time we sat on the stairs in a Yale building where the party was being held. We were less than a foot apart but we refrained from touching. That made no difference. It felt like our skin sent out such fierce energy, the energy returned and touched our bodies for us. The gravity between us was more intense then the pressure of descending from heights in space beyond breathing capability.

I could feel touching without flesh touching flesh. It is when it is really skin touching skin. That is when it becomes impossible. Most of my life I had to be drunk and stoned to let anyone put a finger on me. If I were sober, any contact would feel like a violation, even if it wasn’t from an abuser. Yet, it didn’t stop me from being able to be the active person making love to another woman. Men, I never once wanted to touch a man. Never. Ever. That was and is too impossible.

Writing this last paragraph makes me wonder, what was I suppose to feel when I touched a woman? In my mind, I just wanted to touch their body. Make them respond to my touch. And to give them pleasure. But what was I feeling? I don’t really know how to answer that. Did I feel anything? When I felt a physical reaction, it was before we would touch. Touching is impossible for me to do, ever. Now, it is completely impossible. I don’t know whether that can ever be changed. I’ve tried. All my life, I have tried. Finding the ability to experience touch in anyway has been impossible. I have no idea if I ever will. My family did this to me and the others. There is one person I can hug. Only you, Annie.

I can hug you. My feelings of love are for you. Do not misunderstand, Scottie is forever, but I want you forever, too. I want to be close to you. Nothing wrong with feeling love.

If you told me I would have written this letter, I would say, no way. But I just did. What an mind fracking realization. Definitely something, what I wrote. We need to investigate it closer.Doing this has exhausted me. But before I finish, I have to tell you how I feel about you. You always shut me down when I try to do this. My feelings are important to examine. I want to know what you feel. Not about what I say about other people. About me. I want to know. I need to know how you feel about me. And I want you to know how strong my feelings are for you.

It’s been driving me crazy since last session. When we hugged at the end of session, I am ashamed to admit it, my left hand accidentally brushed up against the side of your body. I may have touched the side of your breast. It wasn’t intentional. You moved suddenly. I was pulling back from you. I’m so sorry. I feel like I did something wrong. Bad. Does this upset you? I fucked up. Didn’t I? You have to tell me. Only the truth. I’m afraid to look at you. I won’t be able to when I see you Thursday. I’ll have to practice more on what to say. How to apologize.

I think I’ve said enough in this letter. Going to deliver to your office. Immediately, after I finish writing. You must see this now. It can’t wait. Need to get it out of my head and to you now. Immediately. Please call me after you get this. It’s important. I won’t be able to relax until we talk. Cannot wait.

The rest can wait except one thing, I have been having sick perverted flashbacks. Keep forgetting to tell you about them. They can wait, too. I have to get this letter to you.

I love you and I don’t want to lose you. So please don’t leave me.

It’s time to stop.

“Time for time and traveling with circuses must end. It is time to soar through the time barrier into all moments in the Universe.”

I end with my quote from my film Brief Sacrifice.

“Time can be folded and joined with all elements in all places as the one ultimate moment when time is all at once. In this place everything happens on a continual loop following into a continuum of time forever into infinity. In the “Silver Box,” there is contained the ability to draw time into itself and create the perfect infinite moment.”

I end this letter in “the moment between seconds.”

Love Fondly,



© madison taylor 2008

Madison Family Mansion

Madison Family Mansion

Somewhere In Time – John Barry

Black Bat Flower

Black Bat Flower

“A Dream
The beginning always starts out
With a dream.
It is all a dream
In our own imaginations”
— Madison Taylor

Le Chateau de Rocher

Le Chateau de Rocher is Madison & Scottie’s Home

play is not just play meryl streep“Pretending is not just play. Pretending is imagined possibility” — Meryl Streep

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If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

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If Tomorrow Starts Without Me
Post Created by Jk the secret keeper
Created on Saturday 7th December 2013
Posted On Saturday 4th January 2014

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me [Original]

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me
— Anonymous

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not here to see,
If the sun should rise you find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me, as much as I love you
And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.

He said my place was ready, in heaven far above
And that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned and walked away a tear fell from my eye.
For all my life I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die.

I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do.
It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays the good ones and the bad.
I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
I’d say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.

When I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow
I thought of you and when I did my heart was filled with sorrow.
When I walked through heavens gates I felt so much at home.
God looked down and smiled at me from his great golden throne

He said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you”
Today your life on earth has passed but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last
And since each day is the same there’s no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
You have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts with out me don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.

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Private Writings: Chapter #35 — Nervously Devoted to You

private writings to a psychoanalyst (c) Jk 2013

Private Writings: Chapter #35 — Nervously Devoted to You

Written by Jennifer Kiley
Illustrated by j. kiley
Introduction & Chapter #1
Published on March 19th 2013
Published Early Tuesday AM
Posted 19th November 2013



Crypticistic Synopsis:

private writings to dr. annie haskell, psychoanalyst extraordinaire,
my choice in form of storytelling is using letters with dreams, thoughts, poems, images,
music, art, describing my scripts, recent one ‘brief sacrifice,’ film is waiting for release,
psychotherapy, psychoanalysis, inspirations, reflective comments, the inner & outer workings
of the mind, soul, body, emotions, and bipolar—prefer mentally creative, or interesting,
or a brain misfiring; in the mix are abuse, crashes, near drownings, illegal drugs presently,
hallucinations, hypersexuality, time warps, finding answers to unsolved mysteries, infatuations,
imagination, fantasy, the never ending need to discover my self, my soul, my eternal serenity, my bliss

see you down the rabbit hole.
namaste! madison taylor

Private Writings: Chapter #35 — Nervously Devoted to You

Tuesday, 13th May 2008

Dear Annie

I walked through the front door to the Ritz Hotel in Paris, France. It was magnificent. Scottie’s assistant, Celia, thought it would be romantic for the two of us. It feels so familiar. Everything is perfect. We have the Coco Chanel Suite. It is enormous and Celia arranged for exotic food with a bottle of Dom Perignon to wash it down. I noticed, she, also, made sure there was a well-stocked supply of real Coke to calm my stomach. Celia is a total sweetheart the way she takes care of Scottie, and me, when I am with her. Marvelous. We are going to freshen up, go down for some real food at the Ritz Hotel’s restaurant L’Espadon. Celia made arrangements for a late, late night dinner before we break open the Champagne in our suite. I am planning on filling up on some of these treats after a light meal. Until later, I am going to take a break from writing. I’ll wait for something to happen before I write again. Right now, I need food, drink and rest.

It’s really early in the morning in Paris. Scottie and I, evidently, slept in the same bed. After we got back to our suite, we took the Dom Perignon and treats and headed upstairs to the largest bedroom. I must have nodded off after we drank a few glasses. I did have some brie and crackers, plus caviar. That’s all I remember. I must have slept pretty soundly. When I woke a short while ago, I was undressed, except for my light yellow shirt. Scottie was lying sound asleep next to me. We were both under the same black silk throw. It felt like Scottie was completely naked. She usually likes sleeping unencumbered by clothing. I usually don’t sleep with anything between my body and what covers me either.

I must have been more exhausted than I felt and nodded off while we talked. That was really sweet, Scottie made me more comfortable. Removing all my clothes except for my shirt. She did unbutton it but thought better of taking it off. Maybe she was being extremely careful not to wake me. Or she was being delicate in order not to frighten me by making me naked. I am not totally sure how I would have reacted. No clothing and lying together on a huge bed. Our bodies were touching when I opened my eyes. We were as close as two people could be.

Finding my body was skin to shirt with Scottie’s naked warmth, I realized rather quickly, our bodies must have touched all night long. On our first night in Paris, we slept together. I didn’t expect it, but it felt good to be so close and my skin touching hers. The part that was the best, it felt good doing nothing but snuggling close together.

It’s later now, Annie. I want to tell you what happened when I tried to go back to sleep lying down again next to Scottie. I pulled back the throw enough to find the same spot where I was lying when I first woke up. I was being really careful not to wake Scottie. Once I was comfortable and close enough to her, it felt like I could feel her heart pounding threw her flesh. She was hot. My body started feeling the same heat. It was a little strange, the sensations, not something I was familiar with feeling. I wanted to reach out with my hand and touch Scottie. I wanted to know if it was okay to see how it felt inside of me to feel what my touching her skin felt like to me. Would it be okay or frightened. I wanted to know.

I tried to feel Scottie on her right shoulder from the front. When my left hand felt the soft, velvet of her skin, my whole left side absorbed what felt like an electric jolt that coursed through every fiber of muscle and vessels carrying blood. It shocked me. I could bearly breathe. My whole body slowly felt it was being paralyzed. I was completely overwhelmed by the sensations. Eventually, i was able to lie down near Scottie, but I was just far enough away that our bodies wouldn’t touch, not even accidentally.

I did manage to fall asleep again, but I was flooded with dreams and at least one distinctive nightmare. The lead presence in my nightmare was Hunter Marx. There is no escaping her, even in my sleep. In this nightmare for me, she is accepting an Oscar. It was for the character I wrote in her first film. When she seduced me, then denied it after I convinced Scottie to give her the part. She never got an Oscar for her role but she got buzz, a great agent, and any part she wanted after our film put her in the viewing field.

I’ll write more later. It time to get ready to head out to the set. Scottie doesn’t like waiting. I’m not sure where we will be heading. It’s a surprise. And no, I haven’t said a word about last night to anyone but you. No one can know what happened last night. Scottie, for this moment, needs to think, all we did last night is sleep. My meltdown is only between you and me. Until my body works, no one can know what I am up to. Especially Scottie, and most definitely not Hunter.

Oh, I heard gossip Hunter has been fooling about with a woman. She is married to a producer. Who knows, maybe she is finally claiming her true sexuality. Or she’s aiming for another part just out of her grasp.

I am going to try some wandering around Paris after I meet up with my friend Jonathan Stephens. Going to call him from the set. It’s way too early. He’s a night wanderer like me. So, he is bright and still sound asleep. For me it’s still middle of the night back on the West Coast.

I may finish this letter with photographs if I get some great shots. Be hopeful for me, and remember this is Jonathan meeting me and vice versa my meeting him for the first time in the flesh. It should be wild. He smokes the ganja, so I should get mellowed out with him.

Bye till I see you on Skype. I really can’t wait. I miss you terribly already. Au revoir.

“Time can be folded and joined with all elements in all places as the one ultimate moment when time is all at once. In this place everything happens on a continual loop following into a continuum of time forever into infinity. In the “Silver Box,” there is contained the ability to draw time into itself and create the perfect infinite moment.”

I will end this letter in this moment of now.


© madison taylor 2008

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Madison & Scottie’s Limousine Drops Them
At The Entrance to the Hotel Ritz in Paris
Directly From the Airport

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At L’Espandon
Restaurant at the Hotel Ritz in Paris
Before Retiring to Their Suite
#302 The Coco Chanel Suite

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Coco Chanel’s Suite #302
At Hotel Ritz in Paris

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“Touch of the Spirit”
With Dom Perignon
Gift of the Hotel Ritz in Paris

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Coco Chanel’s Suite #302
The Staircase
Leading Up to the Bedrooms

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Master Bedroom

Somewhere In Time – John Barry

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Time Away Fake Love Dies
By Madison Taylor
13th May 2008

Time away love dies
Risking soul’s disappearance
Pounding hearts expand closer

Skin to flesh touching
Lights dimming in deepest night
Feel fear awaken

Touching love’s senses
Alerts deaths hidden shadows
Tears at body’s flesh

Peaceful calm takes hold
Surrounds with protective spell
Haunting will subside

Strength creates safety
Binding evil winds flow warm
Darkness is fading

© madison taylor 2008

Closeup of Antonio Canovas Sculpture of Cupid and Psyche at Musee du Louvre in Paris France

Closeup of Antonio Canovas Sculpture of Cupid and Psyche at Musee du Louvre in Paris France

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“A Dream
The beginning always starts
With a dream.
It is all a dream
In our own nightmares”
— Madison Taylor

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Best Films Top Ten #11: Fried Green Tomatoes

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Fried Green Tomatoes
Best Films Top Ten #11
Special Feature
Post Created by Jk the secret keeper
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Illustrated by j. kiley
Posted Created on Tuesday 15th October 2013
Posted on Friday 18th October 2013
dedicated to roger ebert film friday

5 stars

Fried Green Tomatoes
Love Story of Idgie & Ruth
Written by Jennifer Kiley
17th October 2013

Romantic. Sad & Joyful. Celebration of two women who love each other. The KKK try to tear their family, life & world apart. They held their common bond in Buddy through his namesake in Ruth’s child Buddy Jr.

The film opens with Idgie, at a single digit age, not wanting to wear a dress for a sibling’s wedding ceremony. She climbs into her tree fort & refuses to come down.

I should take a few steps back. The story of Idgie Threadgoode and Ruth Jamison is told to us through the memories of Ninny Threadgoode. She lives in a nursing home, where one day wanders into the visitors lounge a confused woman who is there with her husband to visit one of his relatives, who hates Evelyn Couch. Her husband ends up visiting alone, while she spends the time alone herself, just wandering around & ends up in the visitors lounge.

A voice comes out of the silence. Ninny & Evelyn meet. A reluctant Evelyn sits with Ninny, who begins to talk her ear off. Evelyn is not sure what she has gotten herself into but she is about to find out. Something surprising, in which she becomes enthusiastic about overtime. It is when Ninny starts telling the story of two special women, one being a direct member of her own family, and the other person, a friend of the family. The family member is Idgie Threadgoode and the other woman is Ruth Jamison.

Their life merging in many different ways turns into one of the most interesting story’s filled with trauma and sadness but also excitement and joy. The film Fried Green Tomatoes is the unusual name of this treat. The story pulls the audience into it & you never want it to end. There is one person you want to see meet his demise as soon as you lay your eyes on him. Mr. Frank Bennett. He is nothing but trouble for everyone he comes in contact with & he must be taken out. I hated him immediately & my hatred grew as I found out more. He was simply put, a violent creep, an abuser, and a brute.

My main focus was what happened between Idgie & Ruth. Idgie’s family wanted Ruth to help guide her in any way possible. “To have a good influence on her.” Did she? That is debatable who had an effect on whom. When she lost her brother, Buddy, who she loved more than anything in the world, she was so devastated she escaped from her life. Slept on the shore of the lake. Big George, who ended up taking care of her for most of her life, watched over her. Ruth, also, lost Buddy that day.

Ruth was Buddy’s fiancée & missed him just as much as Idgie did. Her job was to follow Idgie around & instead of her guiding Idgie, Idgie took control & they had many adventures. Never one she would have thought of herself. One such adventure was to hop a train car & throw food to the poorer people of their area. Basically, stealing from the haves and giving to the have nots. At first Ruth felt it was stealing. Then she saw the hungry children. Her mind changed & so did her enthusiasm.

As Idgie & Ruth get closer. Idgie throws her a great surprise birthday party in the poorer side of town where she hangs out regularly. They drank, played poker & drunk baseball. Ruth got a home run but hit like a girl. Afterwards, the two sat on the shore & practically kissed. But Ruth broke the magic by saying she would be the good daughter and marry the man she was supposed to marry, who turned into Frank Bennett.

Life turned sour after that. Idgie didn’t go to the wedding. But one day she decided to visit Ruth, who kept the screen door between them & hid a huge bruise on her face. Idgie left without knowing. Frank came to the door as Idgie drove away. He had contempt in his eyes.

When Ruth’s mother died, it was time for Ruth to escape. She sent a note to Idgie in a disguise. A cryptic Bible passage. It was a hint she needed rescuing. When Idgie got to Ruth’s place, along with her brother Julian & Big George, she found her upstairs alone, gazing out the window. She told Idgie she was pregnant. Idgie told Ruth she was leaving with her. They got her belongings & as they were ready to exit the front door, Frank came in. By this time, Julian & Big George heard them from the car. In the struggles, he started to carry Ruth over his shoulder up the stairs & told Idgie to leave.

Julian & Big George convinced Frank to put Ruth down. Big George politely threatened him as he was holding his knife. Frank turned around & released Ruth to go down the stairs. Before she took one step down, he kicked her from behind, sending her flying down the stairs to land directly on her stomach. Idgie & Julian helped her up & Big George helped her to the car. Idgie looked straight up at Frank & threatened him, “If you ever touch her again, I’ll kill you.”

Life did change for Idgie & Ruth. They opened the Whistlestop Café. Ruth had her baby & named him Buddy Jr.. They built a life together. They were generous to the poor. One in particular, Smokey Lonesome, frequented Whistlestop Café & they saw to it he was always taken care of with food & a bottle to steady his nerves. Even a warm blanket for an outside room where he could sleep. They were also good to the black folk who came for food. It was a time when whites and blacks didn’t mix. Whistlestop didn’t believe in segregation so they served anyone who wanted a meal.

Grady, the law now, and friend of Idgie’s, told them they had to behave & follow the rules or there would be trouble from the KKK. Idgie knew Grady was a Klan member. But the local group was fairly liberal compared to the way they behaved elsewhere. Idgie & Ruth came to an agreement, they would continue to serve black people but they would have them eat at the picnic tables outside, in the back near the barbeque. That’s where Big George made the best barbeque in the whole of the South.

Further trouble struck one night. Frank heard he had a son. So he came with his Klan members from a state over with bad intentions.. He knocked Sipsey out when he tried to take Buddy. Ruth got wind he was there and stopped him. Sipsey came to & told him she wasn’t afraid of him. He told her she should be. He finally did leave but not until they harassed Big George & tied him up & whipped him. Idgie threatened the Klan if they didn’t stop. Grady stopped her but stepped in himself. He made them leave. Idgie untied Big George & took him away to tend to his wounds.

Frank did return on another night, alone, & stole the baby out of the house. As he was attempting to get into his truck, he was stopped several times by Smokey Lonesome. He punched Smokey & knocked him over several times. When out of the blue someone came up from behind & clobbered him with a cast iron skillet. That was it. He fell to the ground & someone picked up the baby basket. That was the last anyone heard about Frank Bennett.

What was ahead, from that point on seemed to go smoothly but things kept on happening. A member of the law kept looking for Frank Bennett. He ate a lot of the barbeque that Big George prepared. When he asked how they got it to taste so good, Sipsey [Cicely Tyson] told him, “The secret’s in the sauce.”. He was like a dog with a bone, when it came to Frank’s disappearance.

One damned day, a rusty truck was washed up during a great rain. It turned out to be Frank’s. The law from the next state came after Idgie.

Now believe it or not, I haven’t really told you too much. There is so much more happening that I haven’t revealed. Of course, there is a court case. It is all rather funny.

Now you must realize, I am only telling you the story Ninny is telling to Evelyn Couch. There is so much more to tell. First, that Fried Green Tomatoes is a brilliant & emotionally deep film. Let’s not say it is only for the female sex. I don’t feel it is limited in that way.

For the rest of the story & for Ninny Threadgoode’s [Jessica Tandy] part of the story, you will definitely have to rent, buy or stream the film. It is a great story. Touching & funny, warm & women don’t take no sh*t in it. “Towanda!” The cry of the angry woman who is tired of being mistreated & overlooked by the rudeness of the young & the ill-mannered of the world.

The film is about the injustice & treatment of what society felt were the lesser people in the world. Not because they were lesser but because they were designated to second class citizenship by the white male majority [not really the majority but the rich white male who felt he owned everything & everyone that wasn’t like him]. Not a lot has changed, if you look around.

As I wrote in my post on marriage & relationships of an intimate nature, these connections always have a sad ending, sometimes short & sometimes we live til we are old but we are always going to have to say goodbye. In Mary-Louise Parker’s acting roles, she had the bad luck of her characters not having the longest of life spans. She is a brilliant actor & I have seen all the films she has been in. Fried Green Tomatoes was my introduction to her fine quality of acting.

To bring this treatise on FGT to an end, I leave you with film clips, trailer, photographs & music & even a music video I made of the film from shots in sequential order with the story with a beautiful song playing while you are viewing the results of my experimental creativity. Only just learning how to do the music video process.

I highly recommend this film. For me it is a FIVE STAR FILM. & I make it my #11 Best Films of All Time. When it was first released into theatres I went to two different towns to see it. They are 30+ miles apart & I went at night. The roads were very dark but I NEEDED to see this film again. It was extremely popular when it was released. That is all I can say. Fried Green Tomatoes are delicious & so is this film. Ciao!

fgt buddy carrying idgie after he gets her to come down

fgt buddy went up tree to get young idgie to come down to get dressed for wedding

fgt idgine when little in church for wedding b4 buddy is killed

fgt ruth walking across resevoir hearing buddy telling his story about the ducks & lake freezing

fried green tomatoes buddy ruth & idgie shortly before buddy is killed by trainFried Green Tomatoes Buddy Ruth & Idgie shortly before Buddy is killed by train. This totally devastates Idgie & she withdraws from the world. The only person who can reach her is Ruth.

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Fried Green Tomatoes (1/10) Movie CLIP – Buddy’s Accident [1991]

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fgt ruth tells idgie shes a bee-charmer

Fried Green Tomatoes (2/10) Movie CLIP – The Spark Back in Marriage

fgt kathy-bates as evelyn wrapped only in cellaphane for husband

FGT idgie w arm over ruths shoulder its 4 surprise bday party for ruth

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fgt ruth tells idgie shes a bee-charmer

fried-green-tomatoes two marysScene from “Fried Green Tomatoes” Idgie Threadgoode & Ruth Jamison on picnic, shortly before Idgie shows her she’s a “bee charmer.” Those are Ruth’s words to Idgie when she goes to the nearest tree loaded with honey & loads of honeybees. Idgie returns with a jar full of honey & beeswax with not a sting on her, bare arms & all.

FGT idgie w arm over ruths shoulder its 4 surprise bday party for ruth

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fgt after party sitting on shore with feet in water idgie & ruth

Fried Green Tomatoes (3/10) Movie CLIP – The Best Birthday [1991]

Fried Green Tomatoes before the rescue Ruth & Idgie

Fried Green Tomatoes Idgie goes to visit Ruth after she is married. Ruth is acting strange & is hiding a huge bruise on the side of her face her husband put their. Idgie leaves against her better judgment.

fgt ruth trying to keep idgie from seeing bruise on her face at husbands place

fgt array of idgie ruth frank bennett nasty as can be bruise on ruths face

Scene from “Fried Green Tomatoes” Idgie Threadgoode & Ruth Jamison matched up from time of youth & on top, after they have grown & Ruth is supposed to have been a good influence on her. I feel she was & is. She rescues Ruth from her abusive brute of a husband & they are finally able to live together & eventually raise the baby Ruth was pregnant with at the time of the rescue.

fried-green-tomatoes bastard husband throws ruth down stairs while she is pregnant when rescuedFried Green Tomatoes Ruth’s bastard husband won’t let Ruth go without being a pr*ck, so he puts his foot on her back and pushes her down the stairs while she is pregnant.

fried green tomatoes idgie rescue day of ruthFried Green Tomatoes Idgie stands up to Ruth’s husband & tells him if he ever touches her again she would kill him.

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fried-green-tomatoes the escape with ruthFried Green Tomatoes Idgie brought along her brother & her loyal friend, who also does the best barbeque for the Whistlestop Cafe. They both pose a threat to Ruth’s husband but Idgie’s friend threatens him, which could be dangerous for him because he is black & Ruth’s husband we later find out is a member of the KKK.

Fried Green Tomatoes (4/10) Movie CLIP – Ruth Leaves Frank [1991]

idgie threadgoode & ruth jamison fried green tomatoesScene from “Fried Green Tomatoes” Idgie Threadgoode & Ruth Jamison matched up from time of youth & on top, after they have grown & Ruth is supposed to have been a good influence on her. I feel she was & is. She rescues Ruth from her abusive brute of a husband & they are finally able to live together & eventually raise the baby Ruth was pregnant with at the time of the rescue.

fried green tomatoes after rescue baby born set up whitlestop cafeFried Green Tomatoes Ruth, her baby boy & Idgie set up a life together. They open up the Whistlestop Cafe, which has the best barbeque like no other & all are welcome. No prejudice from them but their patrons aren’t as generous. But then they’re living in the times where everything is rough, but no one objects to their love.

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Fried Green Tomatoes (5/10) Movie CLIP – Food Fight [1991] HD

fried-green-tomatoes photo array of idgie & ruthFried Green Tomatoes This is an array of the relationship in photos of just how close a relationship Idgie & Ruth have developed over the years they know each other. It is a love relationship like no other. Their generosity with each other is spread out into the community ten fold.

Fried Green Tomatoes (6/10) Movie CLIP – Frank Intrudes on Ruth at Whistlestop

fgt cant look at own vagina evelyn crying as she is telling it to ninny gif“How many of those hormones are you taking.” Ninny asks this of Evelyn when she doesn’t seem to calm down.

Fried Green Tomatoes (7/10) Movie CLIP – Parking Lot Rage [1991]

FGT evelyn going thru change & telling ninny she doesn't know whats wrong w her

Fried Green Tomatoes (9/10) Movie CLIP – Evelyn the Destroyer [1991]

fgt evelyn in gif ramming vwTowanda!!! “Let’s face it girls, I’m older and I have more insurance.” A great retort to some snotty bitches who just f*cked the one too many times and Evelyn Couch had it with all the BS.

FGTs ruth telling idgie she has to leave so her shithead husband wont come back idgie assures her never

fgt night frank bennett met is maker

FGT barbeque big george

fgt big george idgies friend helped her thru buddy's death does best bar-b-q

fried-green-tomatoes-barbeque big george

fried_green_tomatoes_1991_smokey lonesome_returns pic of sipsey & ws grady idgies friend

Fried Green Tomatoes rusty truck dead bastard husband

fgt grady arresting idgie fpr frank bennetts murder she wont give up who really did it

fried green tomatoes idgie on trial for murder of frank bennett

fgt idgie on stand at her trial for murder of frank bennett

Fried Green Tomatoes (8/10) Movie CLIP – Taking the Stand [1991]

fgt after buddy jrs train accident big george rushing him to car to take to hospital

fgt at buddy jrs arms funeral lost in train accident almost killed like idgies bro buddy

fried green tomatoes ruth & idgie hugging

Fried_Green_Tomatoes_at_the_Whistle_Stop_Cafe idgie & ruth hats on

Fried-Green-Tomatoes-1991-kathy-bates evelyn eating only rabbit food

Ninny & Kathy Bates with Birthday FGTs w candles

fried-green-tomatoes kathy & ninny at end wants to bring her home to live

fgt evelyn takes ninny to whistlestop to see the town

Fried green Tomatoes ninny in whistlestop w evelyn after they see honey jar in front of ruths grave

fgt whistlestop cafe window

Fried Green Tomatoes (10/10) Movie CLIP – A Lady Always Knows When to Leave (1991) HD

Idgie and Ruth Love Story Fried Green Tomatoes (FGT)

Fried Green Tomatoes – Very Sad Scene

The Love Story of Idgie & Ruth-Created by Jennifer Kiley


Kathy Bates…….Evelyn Couch

Mary Stuart Masterson……..Idgie Threadgoode

Mary-Louise Parker…….Ruth Jamison

           Jessica Tandy…….Ninny Threadgoode

Cicely Tyson…….Sipsey

Chris O’Donnell…….Buddy Threadgoode

Stan Shaw…….Big George

Gailard Sartain…….Ed Couch

Timothy Scott…….Smokey Lonesome

Gary Basaraba…….Grady Kilgore

Lois Smith…….Mama Threadgoode

Jo Harvey Allen…….Women’s Awareness Teacher

Macon McCalman…….Prosecutor Percy

Richard Riehle…….Reverend Scroggins

Raynor Scheine…….Sheriff Curtis Smoote

Nancy Moore Atchison…….Little Idgie Threadgoode

Grayson Fricke…….Buddy Threadgoode Jr.

Haynes Brooke…….Older Julian Threadgoode

Nick Searcy…….Frank Bennett

Fried Green Tomatoes Trailer

FRIED GREEN TOMATOES (1991) – Thomas Newman – Soundtrack

Growing A Good Marriage / Partnership [Same-Sex / Opposite-Sex]

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Growing A Good Marriage / Partnership
[Same-Sex / Opposite-Sex]

Written by Jennifer Kiley
Post Created by Jk the secret keeper
Post Created on Sunday 13th October 2013
Posted On  October 2013
Remembering Memories



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cosmic all you need is love“Nine psychological tasks for a good marriage”

Task #1

Separate  emotionally  from  the  family   you  grew  up  in;
not to the point of estrangement, but enough so that your
identity is separate from that of your parents and siblings.

Task #2

Build togetherness based on a shared intimacy and
identity, while at  the same time  set  boundaries  to
protect each partner’s autonomy.

Task #3

Establish a rich and pleasurable sexual relationship and protect
it  from  the  intrusions  of the workplace and family obligations.

Task #4

For  couples  with children,  embrace  the  daunting  roles of
parenthood and absorb the  impact  of  a   baby’s   entrance
into the marriage. Learn to continue the work of protecting
the privacy of you and your spouse as a couple.

Task #5

Confront and master the inevitable crises of life.

Task #6

Maintain the strength of the marital  bond in the
face of adversity. The marriage should  be a  safe
haven in which partners are able to express their
differences, anger and conflict.

Task #7

Use humor and laughter to keep things in perspective
and to avoid boredom and isolation.

Task #8

Nurture and comfort each other, satisfying
each partner’s needs for dependency and
offering  continuing  encouragement  and

Task #9

Keep alive the early romantic, idealized images
of falling in love, while facing the sober realities
of the changes wrought by time.

I would add a #10 Task: KISSING… View the following photographs, some Famous Screen Kisses, a Special Couple Sharing a Lovely Kiss & something Special which holds deep memories for me & I am sure for many, the Most Joyful & Most Sad Love Story of them all. And, No, I am not talking about the one that ‘issued’ the line, “Love means never having to say you’re sorry.” That is total sh*t! No, I am speaking of the one written by the Greatest Wordsmith/Writer of them all, William Shakespeare. Enjoy the video with song & the Soundcloud with Dire Straits, which you probably already heard, if you had your sound turned on. by Jennifer Kiley

desert hearts kiss in rainScene from “Desert Hearts

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breakfast at tiffany kiss in the rainScene from “Breakfast at Tiffany’s

ghost demi & patrickScene from “Ghost

romeo & juliet kissScene from “Romeo & Juliet

titanic rose & jackScene from “Titanic

Love-moulin rouge nicole in song1024x409“The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.” ~ Moulin Rouge! [2001]

romeo & juliet let a hand do what lips doScene from “Romeo & Juliet”

(taking JULIET’s hand)
If I profane with my unworthiest hand
This holy shrine, the gentle sin is this:
My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand
To smooth that rough touch with a tender kiss.

Good pilgrim, you do wrong your hand too much,
Which mannerly devotion shows in this,
For saints have hands that pilgrims’ hands do touch,
And palm to palm is holy palmers’ kiss.

Have not saints lips, and holy palmers too?

Ay, pilgrim, lips that they must use in prayer.

O, then, dear saint, let lips do what hands do.
They pray; grant thou, lest faith turn to despair.

Saints do not move, though grant for prayers’ sake.

Then move not, while my prayer’s effect I take.

Kisses her

Thus from my lips, by thine, my sin is purged.

Then have my lips the sin that they have took.

Sin from thy lips? O trespass sweetly urged!
Give me my sin again.

They kiss again

Romeo & Juliet — Leonardo DiCaprio & Claire Danes

Romeo and Juliet by Dire Straits and Rafi Wazir

All love stories eventually have a sad ending. Sometimes early & too soon & other times, you are able to live to be old together. Either way, unfortunately in the physical plane, you always end up having to say goodbye. The really good part is that you have a love story or more than one to remember as you live your life. “All you need is Love.” Thank you, John Lennon & all the other Beatles. It is true, “All You Need Is Love.” “The Greatest Thing You’ll Ever Learn Is Just To Love and To Be Loved In Return.” [Moulin Rouge-2001]

Credit to Judith S. Wallerstein, PhD,
Co-author of the book “The Good Marriage: How and Why Love Lasts”

“Nine psychological tasks for a good marriage”

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i carry your heart with me

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i carry your heart with me
by e.e. cummings
Post Created by Jk the secret keeper
Post Created On Sunday 6th October 2013
Posted On Saturday 12th October 2013
Poetry Out Loud

Edward Estlin Cummings (1894 — 1962) was an American poet, painter, essayist, author, and playwright. He was born in Cambridge, Massachusetts, USA. Cummings’ poetry often deals with themes of love and nature, as well as the relationship of the individual to the masses and to the world. Modernism prevailed major part of his work.

I Carry Your Heart With Me — e.e. cummings

[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]
by e. e. cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
                                                       i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)