It’s My World

Snowflake Mandala from Coloring Book - A-Work-In-Progress by Jennifer Kiley

Snowflake Mandala from Snowflake Mandalas Coloring Book —  A Work of Meditation-In-Progress by Jennifer Kiley

IT’S MY WORLD

What is so frightening
About a coloring book?

Is it childhood memories
Touching crayons to page
Filling in the spaces?

Now the colors
I choose

I am in control

No supervision
No direction
Obedience is out of sight

Freedom

No beatings
No orders to disobey

It’s my world
And I live in it

© jk 2015
08.17.15

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Mandala (Sanskrit Maṇḍala, ‘circle’)
is a spiritual and ritual symbol in Indian religions,
representing the universe.
The basic form of most mandalas is a square with four gates
containing a circle with a center point.

A Mandala is far more than a simple shape.
It represents wholeness, and can be seen as a model for the
organizational structure of life itself–a cosmic diagram
that reminds us of our relation to the infinite, the world
that extends both beyond and within our bodies and minds.

Describing both material and non-material realities, the
Mandala appears in all aspects of life: the celestial circles
we call earth, sun, and moon, as well as conceptual circles
of friends, family, and community.

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Thoughts on Writing – Susan Sontag [Series Pt 8]

a writer's word new 14th june 2014Thoughts on Writing

A Multiple Part Series – Part # 8

“Think With Words—Not Ideas”

by Susan Sontag

Post by Jennifer Kiley

Post Sunday 14th December 2014

susan sontag photo for series

The writer does not have to write. She must imagine that she must. A great book: no one is addressed, it counts as cultural surplus, it comes from the will.
(3/10/80)

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Ordinary language is an accretion of lies. The language of literature must be, therefore, the language of transgression, a rupture of individual systems, a shattering of psychic oppression. The only function of literature lies in the uncovering of the self in history.
(3/15/80)

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The love of books. My library is an archive of longings.
(4/26/80)

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Making lists of words, to thicken my active vocabulary. To have puny, not just little, hoax, not just trick, mortifying, not just embarrassing, bogus, not just fake.
I could make a story out of puny, hoax, mortifying, bogus. They are a story.
(4/30/80)

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A Short Note for the end of each part of this 8 part series.

When Susan Sontag died the obituaries omitted her relationship with photographer Annie Leibovitz, with whom Sontag maintained a relationship with throughout her last decade.

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Thoughts on Writing – Susan Sontag [Series Pt 7]

a writer's word new 14th june 2014Thoughts on Writing

A Multiple Part Series – Part # 7

“Think With Words—Not Ideas”

by Susan Sontag

Post by Jennifer Kiley

Post Sunday 7th December 2014

susan sontag photo for series

Language as a found object
(2/1/79)

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Last novelist to be influenced by, knowledgeable about science was Aldous Huxley
One reason [there are] no more novels — There are no exciting theories of relation of society to self (sociological, historical, philosophical)
Not SO — no one is doing it, that’s all
(undated, March 1979)

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There is a great deal that either has to be given up or be taken away from you if you are going to succeed in writing a body of work
(undated, March 1979)

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To write one must wear blinkers. I’ve lost my blinkers.
Don’t be afraid to be concise!
(3/10/79)

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A failure of nerve. About writing. (And about my life — but never mind.) I must write myself out of it.
If I am not able to write because I’m afraid of being a bad writer, then I must be a bad writer. At least I’ll be writing.
Then something else will happen. It always does.
I must write every day. Anything. Everything. Carry a notebook with me at all times, etc.
I read my bad reviews. I want to go to the bottom of it — this failure of nerve
(7/19/79)

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A Short Note for the end of each part of this 8 part series.

Maybe I could have given comfort to some people if I had dealt with the subject of my private sexuality more, [Sontag considered herself to be bisexual] but it’s never been my prime mission to give comfort, unless somebody’s in drastic need. I’d rather give pleasure, or shake things up.” – Susan Sontag

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Thoughts On Writing – Susan Sontag [Series Pt 6]

a writer's word new 14th june 2014Thoughts on Writing

A Multiple Part Series – Part # 6

“Think With Words—Not Ideas”

by Susan Sontag

Post by Jennifer Kiley

Post Sunday 30th November 2014

susan sontag photo for series

One can never be alone enough to write. To see better.
(7/19/77)

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Two kinds of writers. Those who think this life is all there is, and want to describe everything: the fall, the battle, the accouchement, the horse-race. That is, Tolstoy. And those who think this life is a kind of testing-ground (for what we don’t know — to see how much pleasure + pain we can bear or what pleasure + pain are?) and want to describe only the essentials. That is, Dostoyevsky. The two alternatives. How can one write like T. after D.? The task is to be as good as D. — as serious spiritually, + then go on from there.
(12/4/77)

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Only thing that counts are ideas. Behind ideas are [moral] principles. Either one is serious or one is not. Must be prepared to make sacrifices. I’m not a liberal.
(12/4/77)

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When there is no censorship the writer has no importance.
So it’s not so simple to be against censorship.
(12/7/77)

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Imagination: — having many voices in one’s head. The freedom for that.
(5/27/78)

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A Short Note for the end of each part of this 8 part series.

“Intellectually, I know why I haven’t spoken more about my sexuality, but I do wonder if I haven’t repressed something there to my detriment.”
– Susan Sontag

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Thoughts On Writing – Susan Sontag [Series Pt 5]

a writer's word new 14th june 2014Thoughts on Writing

A Multiple Part Series – Part # 5

“Think With Words—Not Ideas”

by Susan Sontag

Post by Jennifer Kiley

Post Sunday 23rd November 2014

susan sontag photo for series

Weakness of American poetry — it’s anti-intellectual. Great poetry has ideas.
(6/14/76)

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Not only must I summon the courage to be a bad writer — I must dare to be truly unhappy. Desperate. And not save myself, short-circuit the despair.
By refusing to be as unhappy as I truly am, I deprive myself of subjects. I’ve nothing to write about. Every topic burns.
(6/19/76)

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The function of writing is to explode one’s subject — transform it into something else. (Writing is a series of transformations.)
Writing means converting one’s liabilities (limitations) into advantages. For example, I don’t love what I’m writing. Okay, then — that’s also a way to write, a way that can produce interesting results.
(11/5/76)

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‘All art aspires to the condition of music’ — this utterly nihilistic statement rests at the foundation of every moving camera style in the history of the medium. But it is a cliché, a 19th century cliché, less an aesthetic than a projection of an exhausted state of mind, less a world view than a world weariness, less a statement of vital forms than an expression of sterile decadence. There is quite another pov [point of view] about what ‘all art aspires to’ — that was Goethe’s, who put the primary art, the most aristocratic one, + the one art that cannot be made by the plebes but only gaped at with awe, + that art is architecture. Really great directors have this sense of architecture in their work — always expressive of immense line of energy, unstable + vital conduits of force.
(undated, 1977)

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A Short Note for the end of each part of this 8 part series.

Sontag was quoted by Editor-in-Chief Brendan Lemon of Out magazine as saying “I grew up in a time when the modus operandi was the ‘open secret’. I’m used to that, and quite OK with it.” – Susan Sontag

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